Those unspoken words

You know what? I have the best reply to what you just said but i am just practicing patience and avoiding any argument which will play in my head one zillion times. But I so wish i could just say what i feel like. I wanna punch your face with those words and i know it's going to be worth it. but just because i have promised myself to be a good soul and prove to myself that i can control, i will not trash you. I wanna show that it is not important that i should react to whatever you say (Actually really want to) but no, i will not lose my calm and yes, i know I am the better person here, so, deep breathe. yes! i will smile, or just ignore you, your face, your voice oh god those expressions... aaarrrggghhh I so wanna punch you so hard! CONTROL!

Do those unspoken words bother you? Plays in your head too while you just stare at that irritating person in front of you? your nails digging into your palm while you hold on to your fist tightly from banging the table in front of you? Do you close your eyes and deep breathe too?

Just curious.